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Hari yang penuh suram, hari yang penuh kesedihan. Walaupun tidak berlaku dalam keluarga saya mahupun kenalan namun kesedihan masih dirasa. Apatah lagi ahli keluarga, adik-beradik penumpang dan anak kapal MH17. Tak dapat dibayangkan jika saya berada di tempat mereka. Adakah saya sekuat mereka? Semoga mereka sentiasa tabah dan redha dengan pemergian insan tersayang. Sangat beruntung kerana jenazah didoakan dan solat jenazah oleh seluruh rakyat Malaysia.

Sesungguhnya kematian itu pasti. Bila dan bagaimana saat mati itu hanya Allah yang tahu. Berdoalah sentiasa semoga kita mati dalam keadaan husnul khotimah. Amin...

Gugur juga air mata ni bila tengok gambar ni. Sebak... :'(

Source: Insta paknil

Didoakan juga semoga semua usaha yang dilaksanakan ke atas MH17 dan MH370 dipermudahkan dan diberi petunjuk oleh Allah SWT.

GeRam BeTUL!

Saya ni kalau tengok anak orang, tingat kat anak sendiri. Apa lagi kalau tengok anak sendiri. Bila anak orang sakit, tak sampai hati nak tengok sbb kesian. Doakan aje dia cepat baik. Kalau anak sendiri lagilah Tuhan ajelah yang tau. 

Tapi bila tengok bayi baru lahir yang dicampak dari atas ke bawah ni mmg tak boleh tahan. Geram + sedih yang TERAMAT. Manusia kejam! Baby tu dah la fragile. Budak ni kalau dia jatuh skit pun kita dah risau inikan plak yg dicampak dari atas ke bawah. Sampai pecah kepala lak tu. Astaghfirullah! Manusia jenis hape la ni. Tak pikir ke? Cuba ko lak amik tmpt baby tu..huh! Eeee...geram btul! Mesti sakit sangat baby tu...:'(

Perihal Kerja

Warning : An emo entry.
 
1. Being scolded by your bos = normal
2. Being scolded because of your fault = acceptable
3. Being scolded because of others 'kerenah' = unacceptable

I HATE the third one. Well, whether you accept it or not that's reality. I don't even bother when the big bos get angry because I am just a 'gurkha' not a decision maker yet (kalau ada rezeki. The responsibility is triple). In fact, i take that as a learning process. And I know he does it for reasons. Unfortunately, i am so-called 'the-one-and-only' who are there and it ends up very bad..huhu. I should not be there because he actually expects someone else to come. So the level of anger become double. I don't know maybe be communication breaks down somewhere and it makes the things worst..huh.

I do admit that I inherit my mom's character a lot. She is a wonderful person. She doesn't talk much and manage to control her anger. To her silent is the best policy. But somehow, when you keep quiet people do not know what are others thinking about theirs. Therefore i would rather being like my father. He is totally different as compare to my mom. He is just an outspoken person. Everything which is not under his satisfaction, he will say it out loud which I think that might give some good or bad effect to him or others. Good if they realize and do some improvement. And bad means u may hurt other people's feeling and eventually create not-so-good relationship afterwards. I am not inherit his character which i wish i can make it one day.

I love my job. But I hate the stupid things happen around me. Macam2 kerenah..huh!

Trigger

Something happen and it triggers the past memory of mine and eventually spoils mood of d day.

I hate dis kind of feeling.....

..... and the one who triggers dat feeling *sigh*

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Forget bout the above one. Can I? I dont think so unless either me or dat person move to d new place.

Let see what i get for Muaz today....

Received them from MREPC. Cute!

Mingled feelings~~

HAPPY : 

Coz my online application form has been completed by three of my referees. Out of 2 of the 3 references are my own effort which are done by myself. They just amend or modify the draft accordingly. It's quite difficult to describe bout me coz i tend to 'puji diri sendiri' and up myself a lil bit. Inspite of doing it by myself i would rather prefer people judge me from their point of view. Just imagine how i put up the draft? Hopefully, i am not blowing my own trumpet and being excessively self indulgent..hahaha

UNHAPPY :

To people who are always escape from something or somebody. I dont know how does people think? If u are given a task to complete, u should finish it within the timeframe isn't it? But some people simply avoid their job without settling it first and simply going out even during the office hour for the unacceptable reason...huhu

Touching

I got it from here. Just love to share with u all. Touching la~~

Nak nangis rase..sob..sob..

Petang semalam

Hujan sangat lebat waktu saya dalam perjalanan ke rumah mak nak amik Muaz. Macam biasa bila nak dekat sampai simpang untuk masuk rumah mak saya akan bagi signal awal untuk masuk lane kiri. Memang telah dipastikan dari cermin sisi dan cermin pandang belakang takde kenderaan lain yang menghalang. Trafik agak slow ketika itu sebab hujan dan jalan yang agak licin.

Tiba-tiba........

Ada motor mencelah ketika saya nak masuk lane kiri tu. Bila dia melepasi kereta saya, dia seolah2 macam nak jatuh (motornye terhogek2, tapi nasib baik tak jatuh). Mungkin sebab dia nak mengelak kereta saya. Saya tak tahu dari arah mana dia datang sebab tetiba je dia muncul. Saya yang tak perasan ke??  Signal mmg dah bagi awal. Dalam keadaan terhogek2 tu, mat motor ni sempat menyumpah seranah saya dengan menjerit ;b*bi!

Yang peliknya dalam keadaan hujan lebat tu, dia boleh jalan slow ke depan tunggu saya hampir dekat motor dia. Dia jerit lagi sekuat hati : b*bi! b*bi! (mula2 cam kesian tgk dah terhogek2 tadi, tapi ko dah menyumpah aku dua tiga kali, kalau ko jatuh lagi bagus!!!! Ko jerit la sekuat mane pun aku tak kan pandang, buat cam takde pape). Geram!

Moral of the story :

Bersabarlah wahai penunggang motosikal, jangan nak mencelah je.

Peringatan utk diri sendiri jugak pastikan jalan clear bila nak masuk lane kiri/kanan.

Ragam pengguna jalan raya ni menyebabkan kdg2 terkluar kata2 yang tak sepatutnya. Takut je kalau Muaz dengar.

Yang penting, memandu dalam keadaan hujan lebat nih berbaloi rasanye bayar road tax walaupun saya pakai keta kecik aje ;)

sErABut

Kepala saya serabut memikirkan :

1)  Application form yang tak siap2 lagi walaupun documentation almost complete.
2)  Proposal yang nak dibuat.
3)  Tak semudah yang disangka untuk dapatkan tandatangan Ketua Jabatan yang makan masa lebih sehari (rasanya tak dapat hari ni) - hopefully by Monday dah sign ler...
4)  Kata2 yang disampaikan oleh seseorang pagi tadi (yang ni dah malas nak amik pusing..abaikan aje)
5)  Closing date yang semakin hampir dengan next week ramai yang dah mula cuti..argghhh!!!!!
6)  Sempat ke nak proses ni? Sempat ke? Sempat ke?
7)  Nak wat keje sure tgh malam bila Muaz dah tdo. Tapi dh tgh malam tu tau je la. Muaz tdo ngn mama skali syncope...haih...

Ya Allah permudahkan segala urusanku...Amin.

Siapa yang suka menyondol@menumus?

Sape lagi kalau bukan Muaz sayang aka Omel. Dah makin besar, makin manja. Maklumlah dikelilingi oleh dayang2 kat umah wan sini. Kalau balik Maran xdela dayang2, awang2 ade la. Dah pandai majuk. Bila org marah, mula la dia buat muka. Cengginila gayanyer...

Tapi gamba ni ada unsur2 senyuman skit. Ada muka yg lagi serius.

Kadang2 nak marah pun tak jadi bila dia menyengeh sampai kecik2 mata dibuatnya. Lemah rasenye...hehe (tu la senjata Muaz). Takleh2 kdg2 kene serius gak ngan anak ni. Nanti dia ingat kita main2 jer..

6 batang gg skang ni yang suka menggeget jari + nip*le mama..babap kang ;)

Satu lagi habit Muaz yang dah lama dikesan. Suka menyondol2. Bila menyondol2 dah tau la tu mengendeng2 nak susu. Anak korang camni x? Rasa tersentuh naluri keibuan bila anak tercari2 maknya, datang dekat then terus menyondol2 sambil menumus kat peha maknya.

Ni masa hari raya. Dah busan main datang cari mama ;)

Hari ni Muaz dah setahun 3 minggu. Kalau dah masuk umur setahun ni, soklan yang selalu muncul di mulut mak2 ni ialah "Anak dah jalan dah?" Takde masalah dengan soklan ni sebenarnyer. So saya akan jawab "Muaz belum jalan lagi. Bab2 meniti tu dah bole la. Cuma blum ada confident." "Eh, lambat la. Dah setahun tak jalan lagi." Haa...part ni yang saya tak boleh dengar. Komen macam ni sangat sensitif. Apa salahnye diam atau cakap "Tak lama lagi jalan la tu." Kan sedap skit bunyinyer. Hishhhh....please talk nicely.

Itu pasal orang kata anak kita. Ada gak sesetengah ibu ni suka condem anak sendiri. Tak tahulah dengan niat atau tanpa niat. Boleh plak kata anak dia memang lambat, belaja pun lambat pick up. Ape la perasaan anak dia kan kalau dicakap kat depan org ramai. Pada saya ibu ni kene bersikap positif terhadap anak2. Lebih baik diam dari kluar perkataan yang tak elok. Kene ingat jugak apa yang keluar dari mulut ibu tu satu doa. Kelemahan dan kekurangan memang ada. Tanggungjawab pada ibu bapalah yang akan membetulkan dan memperbaiki kelemahan tu (haa..amik kau saya dah berceramah) ;p

Dia datang lagi...

Sape yang datang? Kawan baik saye ler yang datang setiap bulan. Kalau dia tak datang, ada maksud tu..hehe

Kadang2 dia datang tanpa menunjukkan sebarang tanda atau simptom. Kadang2 bila dia datang, mood trus jadi tak menentu. Saya boleh jadi terlalu letih (sbb zat besi kluar dari badan), sensitif, mudah tersentuh dan sangat mudah marah. Kadang2 penah jugak sampai out of control. Tapi takdelah sampai nak pukul org, ternaik suara skit jer. Yang jadi mangsa, orang2 yang berada dekat dengan saya pada masa tu. Tak suami, adik2. Sure korang tau apa bende kan.

Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) can produce physical and emotional or behavioral symptoms and it differs from one woman to another. Here i'm not concern bout the physical symptoms. I do realize the symptoms but it does not affect my emotion or in other words it does not affect people around me. Only me will feel it. But the emotional symptoms do give some changes of my behavior and sometimes it affects people. Mood swings, fatigue n feeling of sadness and hopelessness. So i'm so sorry if you are the nearest person to me. This is the nature of being a woman rite? They should not be blamed.

Actually those are the normal symptoms. However it can be successfully managed with appropriate self-care. For example like change lifestyle, exercise may increase natural opioids in the brain (endorphin) and improves moods. Do the dietary changes. I found one article in the net telling that an Australian study found that woman experiencing PMS symptoms crave high fat and high sugar foods like choclates, ice-cream and biscuits. So reduce it. Eat more fresh vegetables and fruits because vitamin may reduce PMS symptoms (ohh...that's why...i eat less fruits and veges lately..hmm)

You r so annoying!!

Basuh pinggan dah. Basuh kain dah. Jemur kain pun dah. Bapak n anak tengah lena lagi. Let's have a cup of coffee~~ ;) opsss puasa la...

The title above refers to a woman which is very close to me (so-called dekatla)  not close to my heart but just close to my house. She is neither mean nor bad but yet very friendly not with me. If i'm not mistaken I've spoken to her just 4 to 5 times since we moved here in 2009. I am not going out if there is no necessity. Furthermore i have to take care n give full attention to my lil hero so staying in the house is the best policy. In fact i dont even know her name..poor me. We were only met sometimes coincidentally early in the morning coz everybody rushed to the office or late in the evening when everybody came back home.

This incident happened for the past few weeks..quite sometimes ago. I wont tell it here. Let it be secret as it is. As i mention above, this lady is actually very friendly. But please bare in mind that u can be friendly but dont be too friendly coz u will look so irritating and annoying.

Another incident occured to me yesterday morning and...it hurts..sangat menyampah, meluat sume ada. People know her character. I know that action taken without any intention. But it hurts other people's feeling. I feel angry but dont know how to express my anger. All I do is silent is the best policy tapi dalam hati membara-bara.